Fasting...

today is December 11th, its getting closer and closer to my time to leave. It's sad to think about becuz i really love my life here. i have great friends and "famliy" and both are surrounding the life at church. I can here thinking i would be working mostly with Dan and Katie, but the reality of it is that i actually spend very little time with them and i help more here in Madona. For those of you who dont know, Dan and Katie just moved from Tilza to Ergli, where Dustin and Kristine Peterson live. In Erlgi they have a church, and thats also where Eagle's Wings camp is. But they also have a ministry in Madona a larger town that is about 45 miles away. Diks and Initina live here in Madona, Diks basically run the church here by himself. becuz of space, and timing issues, when i first got here i stayed here in Madona with a family i didnt know and only Diks speaks english. But as things changed problems were fixed, i had the opportunity to move to ergli, only thing was is i didnt want to. so i stayed here to continue working with the youth, and helping out Diks. sometimes i feel like im not helping enough, but everytime i ask he says im doing fine and he will ask me for help if he needs it. basically my main job here is to help with the youth, everyday out of my week i am spending with different kids who i am encouraging in the Lord. Its been great. there is so much growth going on here. Last night we had a guy get saved. and this was miracle becuz he had always been very opposing to the church, God or anything related. So working here in the church stuff is Dan, Katie, Dustin, Kristine, Guna, and me. Marvin was part of the group but he left. so these people are busy, becuz their IT! On wednesday nights we have our ladies Bible study, we finished our talk about Perfection vs. Excellence. then we spent time in groups listening to God and praying for one another. Katie and Kristine love it when im around becuz they can have an english group. anyways so in our groups we were supposed to quietly listen for God to tell us one problem or sin in our lives that he would like us to work on. then we share it with the group, then we the other people in the group listen for what God wants them to tell you, then they pray it into your heart so you remember it. well my issue is this, i have a hard time hearing Him speak. i realized after being here for a little while that i struggle with this. i was never taught to just sit and listen, so i have just felt like a didnt know what i was doing. UGH! its been kind of a struggle for me. so Katie and Kristine both shared some amazing things which God told them for me. I have grown so much spiritually being here. but obviously im still only 18 and still have forever to go. but i have definately have felt God working in me and through me during my time here. and to any people reading my blog who maybe dont believe in God or believe there is a God, but dont know Him or have a personal relationship with Him. God is real, and He is there you just have to take time to notice Him working, becuz He does, ad i hope reading this blog you are able to see that. on a different note. this last tuesday at our youth Bible study Diks asked everyone to take a day out of the week and fast. I didnt know this until last night at Guna's names day party (which went great by the way), so i am fasting today. i think it all must have got lost in translation that or they just forgot to tell me. i have not spent the entire time in prayer, i just havent, i had some other things to get done also. but i am excited to hear about all that God did in the lives of the other kids come tuesday. lately in my reading time ive been hoping around, ive been in 1st Timothy, then Esther, the psalms, then 2nd Tim, then Titus, then Philemon. idk ive read lots of interesting passages...i really am having a hard time thinking of any i should have wrote them down! GOSH LYS! well heres something, its not great though. 1 Timothy 2:5 "And also if anyone competes in athletics, he is not crowned unless he competes according to the rules." NKJV God even cars about how we play sports. its kind of crazy how he thought of everything. love to everyone reading this i miss you all and will be so happy to see you!